Bug Soup

A Broth of Rambling Thoughts ( with some morsels of 'silly' thrown in for flavor)

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Welcome to Buggy's Pity Party!

WooHoo!

What do we have on the Party agenda today?
We got more loved ones dying!
Can we get a " HeyYa" for more terminal Cancer!!!

My Uncle isn't going to make it.
They've stopped his Chemo ( hate hate hate the Chemo, does it help anyone? No one I know)

I'm too despondant to really talk about it.
I'd like to talk about him, I adore him.
He has always been my favorite.
If you knew him, you'd love my Uncle Stuart too.

I need to call him, and I can't.

I hope I can see him again.

I need to tell him how impotant he is to me, how important he was, to that little girl without a Daddy.
How much I Love him, and how much I love how wonderful he has been to my little girl.

I am just too sad to call him, yet.
Crying would be bad, gotta get it together.
Because it can't be about me, it's about him.
He is worried about me, and I can't cry.

I wish my Mom was here.

29 Comments:

Blogger Badger said...

Big hugs for you, Buggy.

(Fucking cancer.)

11:34 PM  
Blogger mm said...

I'm so sorry Buggy.

{{hugs}}

1:53 AM  
Blogger ~Nutz said...

Oh, Buggy... I'm so sorry. :(

{{{hugs}}}

8:22 AM  
Blogger Bravie said...

I'm so sorry Bug. My thoughts are with you. *hugs*

9:31 AM  
Blogger arkie said...

{{Hugs}} My thoughts are with you and your Uncle Stuart.

9:57 AM  
Blogger augie said...

I'm so very sorry, Buggy.

*hugs*

10:20 AM  
Blogger bobdechemist said...

OK, that totally sucks. Cancer sucks.

I'm glad your uncle has you and that they let him off the chemo fo the end to allow him to end his life in some comfort and dignity.

You will know what to say when you talk to him. You always say things that are both true and kind.

11:22 AM  
Blogger Puffy said...

I'm very sorry to hear about your uncle. Do call him and tell him what you want to tell him. Keep doing it. Even if you think he can't hear you, he can. He will know what you are saying to him.

Before he died last week, when we thought my dad was sedated and couldn't hear us, he sang along to Happy Birthday to my sister, he said I love you to my daughter and his last words to me were "I love you, too."

7:06 PM  
Blogger momma said...

Oh Bug. I'm so sorry. Can you write him a letter?

*big Bug hugs*

8:30 AM  
Blogger MTW said...

*hugs Buggy*
*tears up at Puffy's comment*

6:46 PM  
Anonymous moon said...

I'm so sorry Bug. You'll call, you'll talk, you'll find a way to bring him comfort and love because that's what you do!

*hugabug*

9:21 PM  
Blogger Silvergirl said...

I'm sorry for the loss of your dear uncle. Having you to love must be a comfort to him.

{{{Hugs}}}

9:29 AM  
Blogger Zombs said...

Hugs for Buggy.

It is a freaking relentless disease and unfortunately seems to come for the good ones.

My sympathies.

11:24 AM  
Blogger lights said...

So sorry Bug hon. I'm thinking of you E and sending you love and cyber hugs.

Life doesn't play fair.

6:09 PM  
Blogger HistoryDetective said...

*hugs*

I'm thinking about you and your loved ones, Buggy.

10:14 AM  
Blogger Wheeze said...

wuv.

5:31 PM  
Anonymous Deena,,,buggy's sister said...

Yes, it is heartbreaking for everyone in the family. You would think it had the power to bring a family closer together so they can help comfort each other through this. Too bad people are hurting yet are all alone without family to comfort them.

10:33 PM  
Blogger Buggy said...

Hi Deena!
Did you lose my phone number?

8:40 AM  
Blogger lights said...

*hugs the Bug*

6:33 PM  
Blogger Lasann said...

Buggy, are you doing ok now? No update for a long while.

{{{hugs}}}

9:02 AM  
Blogger Lasann said...

Come back buggy.

1:08 PM  
Blogger Zombs said...

Buggy? Where are you?

Sending good wishes.

4:05 PM  
Blogger Buggy said...

I'm fine.
My glasses broke and I haven't been able to see in almost a week.
Am leaving town for the weekend, but I'll be back.

5:30 PM  
Blogger lights said...

BUUUUUGGGGGYYYYYY!!!!!

Where are you? I wore my brand new monkey socks today and told my new boss that my friend told me that you can't have a bad day when you've got monkeys on your feet. She thought that was pretty funny.

*hugs the bug*

5:22 PM  
Blogger Bravie said...

If you're gonna run around posting in people's blogs, then damnit, you should update. *grin*

6:01 PM  
Blogger Alice said...

*hugs and love*

12:51 AM  
Blogger mysticwolf said...

I'm so very sorry, Buggy.

If you can't call him, write him. Don't worry about your words. Even if you don't recognize it you are eloquent. Let him know how much he means to you.

Won't stop the pain, but it can stop future regrets. And, he deserves to know.

Big {{{hugs}}}.

12:46 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

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4:40 AM  
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2:17 AM  

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